To quit or not to quit – that is the question.

Now it may seem like I am talking about smoking or something like that here, but I’m actually not. What my dilemma is really centered around is what to do about my personal training sessions.

For the last 14 months or so, I’ve been regularly working out at the gym with Taylor – and the concept of Torture with Taylor has so ingrained itself into my life that everyone seems to know what I mean when I mention that I’m off to torture.

It all started with a “change your life” promotion at the gym. I didn’t overly feel the need to change my life but I did like the idea of learning about working out and making it a regular part of my life. I had started many different times with different packages, memberships and subscriptions, but I’d never managed to stick with it for very long. Mostly that’s due to the fact that I really don’t like working out, sweating or anything too athletic.

Twice weekly workouts with Taylor and regular gym visits on my own were starting to make a difference and at the end of my first set of sessions I was starting to see the results. So I signed up for more. Taylor was – I should say is – great. I was learning a lot and gradually losing my fear of weights, machines and muscles.

But my regular workouts with Taylor also started to make me lazy. I began to skip my own workouts in between training sessions to the point where I pretty much didn’t go unless I had torture. After all, despite all the quality Taylor time, I still don’t really like working out even though I like how it makes me feel when I’m done.

Now I’m almost at the end of another set of sessions. I’m stronger than I’ve ever been in my life, generally sleep better and although I still get stressed, am able to manage that better than BT (before Taylor).

All that I like. What I’m less crazy about is the cost. And I’m also a little annoyed with the gym because they spend an awful lot of time, money and resources to attract new people to the gym. But they ignore those of us who are already there.

There are very few deals or incentives available to me – hooked on training and loving its benefits but waffling about renewal – and it seems to me that I’d be a prime candidate to spend more money there. After all, I’m comfortable with my trainer, I’m seeing the results and let’s face it, it’s a lot harder start incorporating the gym into a daily routine than it is to drop it.

But I’m also conscious of my money and where it is going. And a part of me is looking for any excuse not to have to go, struggling with the fact that my brain has compartmentalized the gym in the same place as broccoli – I know it’s good for me but that doesn’t mean I like it.

I’m going to make another attempt at getting to the gym more often on my own while I figure out what to do and count my pennies. And who knows, maybe they’ll come up with a renewal deal that’s just too good to pass up…